I have never called anyone my best friend.
Good friend – Yes. Best friend – Never.
I am not a believer of the concept of having the ‘best’ of anything. As far as I see it, it’s all a relative comparison. Never definite.
And so she was my good friend. I always called her that.
My close friend.
She knew me like no one else did. I could tell her my worst fears, my favorite memories, my darkest secrets, the confusing questions. I could talk to her about anything under the sun.
And so when he came into my life she was the first person to hear about it. I have gone on endless conversation sprees just to let her know how much he means to me. How happy he makes me. How effortlessly he could make me smile. How his one touch or look could send a thousand waves in me.
She smiled. Each time I described him. She smiled to let me know she was happy for me.
Happy that I was finally getting the love I had lost faith in.
I was happy too. Happy when I got them to meet.
It took not a day, or a week. It took months. Or maybe even a year.
I guess for someone who was always the first to tell her about anything in my life, she had decided that I should be the last one to know about this new change in her life. And invariably, a huge change in my life too.
Thus, on the fateful day as I watched the two pieces of my heart walk hand in hand, I knew I was right.
There really is nothing best in this world. Not even good. I thought I had lost trust in learning to love ever again. Turns out I have lost trust in having a friend too.
I have read someplace; it takes one woman to understand another. It also takes only one woman to hurt another.