Friday, October 5, 2007

The essence of life

Yet another colorless and lifeless day. Nothin much happens. Its always the same old story.The same old mysore city, the same old office campus,the same old comp, the same monotonous work .Then its the hard journey back home.Bus full of tired workers, i thank my stars if i get place to keep both my feet down and stand in the bus.Sitting and travelling is more like a dream come true.Overcoming all the hardships, i reach stillness and more loneliness. Feel such a huge lump in my throat when i open the door and go in and find evrything still and calm. Life really can be such a bore and i am going through the worst phase of life right now.New place, unfamiliar surroundings, loads of work and worst of all not a single soul around to share the mishaps in the day. This is when i miss being a child at home.Miss the cozy room my mom cleans and keeps fresh every single day.The plush sofa where i can just dangle my legs or curl up and catch my fav movie in the tv.Or better still, lie under the warm blanket and gaze at the rainy afternoon through my window. Sit in the balcony and talk for hrs with dad and mom and sip hot tea...I miss my home... i miss being at home.. I used to dream of a day when i will become independent and earn my living...but this is not how i wanted it... i want to be the little girl again... Achan's 'papa'..amma's 'ammu'..ettan's scratch post.... I hate being a grown up..... geez..i salute all u brave souls out there for keeping a smile on your face and still be a grown up..This is prolly one lesson i am hoping life will teach me eventually.But as of now, i have badly flunked in all of life's lessons for being a grown up!.

PS: is thr any ritten rule abt bloggin that one post needs to deal only with one topic?Can i just rite all my thoughts into one post and just label it as post of the day?cos seriosuly right now i am getting so many thoughts running thru my head which i would love to post.. but i just cant seem to connect any of those...

nope..enuff is enuff.. i have already muddled up this post to the possible till next time.. if i am sane enuff and if anything's happened in my life which i can rite abt..its adios from me. Just a word before all u ppl out thr..never ever ignore wats thr in ur life today.. cos one day it mite not be thr and dats the day u will miss it the evryone around u...give ur best..give ur most.. if one day u dont wan to find urself alone! i wish i cud do that..but thrs no one around me to take wat i can give..give me one more chance to live my life all over again.... pls

well back to my colorless life and my one and only faithful companion who takes me thru the day..cofeee......................!

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Thy See!

What do u think is the first thing you notice in another person? what is it that draws you to make conversation with a stranger? what is it that makes you keep going back to someone? what is it that u miss a lot when tht special someone is not around u?

My answer to all the questions is... EYES!..yes..eyes, the most beautiful, the most elegant, the most expressive among evrything else that god has given us. Not even words come as close as being expressive as eyes are. The first thing i notice about another person is his/her eyes. It gives away that persons very thoughts when they meet us. I love to see the way eyes twinkle when a loved one comes my way, i notice the way my mothers eyes are when she sees me indulging in something i am forbidden to do, i love to see the seething anger in my friends eyes when i miss her bday and run to meet her to make up for it. I love to see my puppy's eyes light up when he sees me walk in to the room. I love seeing my dad's eyes turn moist when he hears me give a sensible reply [thats one thing my dad never thought i would be able to do ;)] .
Eyes display every emotion in a human mind.. eyes.. the eyes.. I dont think there ever lived a poet who has not described the magic of eyes in their poems nor that there ever lived a lover who hasnt lost himself in his lover's eyes.. yeah i know..too mushy for my liking too...but somehow the magic of eyes are never lost.. not even in this era of scantily dressed females and shirtless muscle guys... its still eyes which dominates evrythin else ;)... wat say folks????

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Life Calls!

Have u ever felt that u were invisible?That u might have been the furniture in the room, or the curtains or mebbe better still a small peck of dust in a corner in the wide span of the room.Its really amazing how some people can walk through others totally, run away from them, like they feel nothing, know nothing. I miss the people who were there in my life who gave color to my days,who stood by me,who cud love me. I miss the people who are there in my life now,who dont see me, for whom i am invisible and i miss the people who will b there in my life cos i dont have anythin to offer .Speaking with daggers in your words never help nor does ignoring.People wont be standing for long.A time comes when they either cease to exist or are rendered visible and that is when the realisation dawns on what a loss really means.
If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.
For you
i Just dont exist!!!!

My First!

For evryone out there..this is my very first post on this blog..fcors.. i hope this one stays..yeah this will..this should ..unlike the three other blogs i started off so happily with and deleted without any hesistation watsoever! i hate myself for that :(...
You are welcome to read and be a part and parcel of my life..or ignore me and let me be on my way..or help me with ur suggestions wen i need them..its upto u...entirely.
I am just goin to write..write out evrythin ...........................................