"If you get what you want, that's God's direction. If you do not get what you want, that's God's protection."
Life around me is going as usual. Every other day. And I participate in it. Because I don't know any other way to live. But the storm inside me rages every day. I am worried that one day it will be beyond my control. Until then, life will go on as usual. Birthday parties, festivals, friends and families, school, movies, work, celebrations, schedules, routines.
I hope I don't break today. I hope I live to see tomorrow.
I hope others live to see tomorrows and dayafters.
I pray. More than I have ever prayed.
Pray that this makes sense. If not to me, at least to the ones who are in it. This senselessness.
