Mind my Mind

 My mind is an overwhelming place to be. It runs as if I am having 100 conversations with 100 other versions of me. And all on very different topics. At the same time. All the time. It never shuts up. 

Is that how it is for all of you? Or am I just the chosen one?

Maybe because I have so many conversations in my head, I can barely make myself have a decent conversation in the real world. Because all my neurons are busy handling my 100 selves, I suck at conversations with others. 

Most often, I look at my 3 offspring and wonder if they inherited this? Unlikely, because they are adept at having perfectly good conversations in the outside world. And they seem quite at ease when they are on their own. Me, on the other hand, if you see me not doing anything, I am either shaking my head at a preposterous suggestion one version of me recommended to the other version inside my head, or laughing away at something hilarious that a part of me just exclaimed inside my head. I am not really ever still, even when I am supposed to be still. Confused much?

It's been a few days now that one neuron in my head has convinced the 99 other versions inside me that I need to get a Private Pilot Certificate. Apparently, that was the outcome of an argument two of them had inside my head while I was trying to understand my sudden onset of the fear of flying. I was not even a party to this discussion - I was only thrown the decision - 'Get the Certificate'.That is all that is hung in my head. I even signed up. $150 for an initial assessment. Get to experience the process and understand the course requirements. Now what in the world am I going to do with a Private Pilot Certificate, god only knows! All I know is I am short of a non-refundable $150 and that at some point within the next 12 months, I have to drag my lazy ass into the said pilot training school and get this assessment done with. And if I like it, then proceed to complete my 50 hours of training and everything else needed to actually get certified. 

On top of this, I am already in the midst of the last decision they threw my way - Getting my PhD (Hopefully I complete it this year!). As if working full-time, being a mom to three little humans, and managing a household weren't enough!!!

Like I said, my mind is not my best friend. It likes to put me in situations and then have the rest of me figure out some way to get out of it. I thought I got better with age. Turns out I just wasn't blogging enough. Getting back on here has been a great change for me. At least it is giving me a chance to vent some of these things out. 

Ah! My favorite place to be!! - Not my Mind, my Blog!